Holy crap, it's been over a month since my last journal...apparently I've been a busy little bee. Still am, actualy :S I'm trying to finish up an 8-10 page paper about Manet, 'Olympia' in particular. It's a cool painting, chalk full of controversy. Check it out, if you want. And that's all the school work I have left until January. I actualy didn't have any exams this semester, just papers and paintings. It was nice, but stressful in a different way. I ended up staying awake for 36 hours to finish one of my papers, not alot of fun. I started getting freaky skin halluciantions by the end of it. I do not recommend it!

At home, my sister has been semi-forcing me to do christmas-y stuff with her, which I don't mind too much. We've gotten a tree, bought decorations, put 'em up, etc., etc. To take a break from the damn paper I went present shopping with her earlier, ended up getting myself something (fail), but I also got a pretty ring for my bestest (win!). Yay! Can't wait to give it to her

As for paintings, I'm not entirely sure what happened, but something (I think it was November) sucked out my will to live, thus, my will to make beautiful art. I don't really feel anything for the paintings I made. I'm kind of dissapointed in myself, and I'm trying to snap myself out of it, but the days are short, and the nights are long, and it's cold outside, and it's all very depressing. Ugh. The anniversary of my friend's death went by recently (r.i.p. T), so I've been thinking about her alot. And when I think about her, I can't help thinking about another person I loved who took her life a few months ago (r.i.p. J)...so..yeah. Not in the mood to paint fluffy blankets and bookcases. I want to paint *them* but I'm worried it'll depress me even more...fuuuudge. Stupid November.

Happier news: since its the holidays a close friend is back in town and plans have been made for sleepovers and general goofiness. Very excited for that ^.^ And Christmas is next Friday! Yaaaaay! Its not all bad I guess. I'm also turning 22 in January. So lots of awesomeness is heading my way, I just need to buck up for now. (It'll be okay!)

Happy Holidays!~